<body> Lost In Beauty-

...I am me!

Living for waiting
All the things that you never know.

...All about me

Just trying to be myself
Enjoying life
And be grateful for who i am

...Friend's

`Alien

...Deep inside our heart

Still waiting for..
still wanting for..
still trying for..

...All the things you
said still running
through my head


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  • ...Lost in beauty...

    being me is my gift,
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    ...Talking...Talking...
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    by ice angel



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    Wednesday, December 24, 2008


    45 things that girls want but WON'T ask for it..

    1. Touch her waist.
    2. Actually talk to her.
    3. Share secrets with her.
    4. Give her your jacket.
    5. Kiss her slowly.
    Are you remembering this?
    6. Hug her.
    7. Hold her.
    8. Laugh with her.
    9. Invite her somewhere.
    10. Hangout with her and your friends together.
    KEEP READING ..
    11. Smile with her.
    12. Take pictures with her.
    13. Pull her onto your lap.
    14. When she says she loves you more, deny it. Fight back.
    15. When her friends say "I love her more than you", deny it. Fight back and hug her tight so she can't get to her friends. It makes her feel loved.
    Are you thinking of someone?
    16. Always hug her and say I love you whenever you see her.
    17. Kiss her unexpectedly.
    18. Hug her from behind around the waist.
    19. Tell her she's beautiful.
    20. Tell her the way you feel about her.
    One last thing you need to do to show her you actually do mean it.
    21. Open doors for her, walk her to her car - it makes her feel protected, plus it never hurts to act like a gentleman.
    22. Tell her she's your everything - only if you mean it.
    23. If it seems like there is something wrong, ask her - if she denies something being wrong, it means SHE DOESN'T WANT TO TALK ABOUT IT - so just hug her.
    24. Make her feel loved.
    25. Kiss her in front of OTHER girls you know!
    WE MIGHT DENY IT BUT WE ACTUALLY LIKE AND KINDA WANT YOU TO TICKLE US ..
    26. Don't lie to her.
    27. DON'T cheat on her.
    28. Take her ANYWHERE she wants.
    29. Text message or call her in the morning and tell her have a good day at school, and how much you miss her.
    30. Be there for her whenever she needs you, and even when she doesn't need you, just be there so she'll know that she can always count on you.
    ARE YOU STILL READING THIS? YOU BETTER, BECAUSE IT'S IMPORTANT.
    31. Hold her close when she's cold so she can hold you too.
    32. When you are alone hold her close and kiss her.
    33. Kiss her on the cheek; (it will give her the hint that you want to kiss her).
    34. While in the movies, put your arm around her and then she will automatically put her head on your shoulder, then lean in and tilt her chin up and kiss her lightly.
    35. Don't ever tell her to leave even jokingly or act like you're mad. If she's upset, comfort her.
    REMEMBER ALL THESE THINGS WHEN YOU ARE WITH HER NEXT ..
    36. When people diss her, stand up for her.
    37. Look deep into her eyes and tell her you love her.
    38. Lay down under the stars and put her head on your chest so she can listen to the steady beat of your heart, link your fingers together while you whisper to her as she rests her eyes and listens to you.
    39. When walking next to each other grab her hand.
    40. When you hug her, hold her in your arms as long as possible.
    MAKE SURE SHE KNOWS SHES LOVED.
    41. Call or text her at night to wish her sweet dreams.
    42. Comfort her when she cries and wipe away her tears.
    43. Take her for long walks at night.
    44. Always remind her how much you love her.
    45. Sit on top of her and tell her how much you love her and then bend down to her face and kiss her while you're sitting on her.
    You'll never know when she needs just a little more love ..

    Feehily's exposed ;

    Tuesday, December 23, 2008


    Preparing for the surprise party at the office tomorrow.. Really hope that it will going well cause i just can't stand to see my friend stress cause of her family matter and that's all is not her fault.

    2 days before Christmas.. nothing expect for the Christmas season this year.. Still have not preparation for my departure to Australia till now.. maybe i will do it tonight..

    Let any doubt to be clear and let all the cheers face come all in this wonderful season.

    I can't deny that i love you so much and it hurts for me if stand aside from you, but it still a puzzle for me to find something missing. Hope you can get home tomorrow.

    What i suppose to do in my life??

    Feehily's exposed ;

    Wednesday, December 17, 2008


    ok.. what will you do if you only have one more hour in this earth? what will you do after you waste your whole life and cherish this few 1 hour in this life. Who is the one you gotta hold his / her hands before you leave this life for forever and what will you say to them?

    Feehily's exposed ;

    Tuesday, December 16, 2008


    Hiks.. i will spend my christmas without him.. Think that will catch him up tomorrow and maybe the incomplete test is a silly joke he gave to me, and end up that i have to fact the reality.. I missing you so bad already and kind of suck keep living life alone missing someone that far away from home. He still stress' with his incomplete test and no fair at all..

    Merry Christmas to everyone which enjoy it (even it is too soon)

    Feehily's exposed ;

    Thursday, December 11, 2008


    Toothache.. so creepy.. Bad dream.. really a bad dream to heard a doctor said that i have to take off 01 more tooth from where it was cause there is no other idea to let my wise teeth keep growing instead of pull it out.. Huh.. It will be a bad day tomorrow.. i guess..
    After 1 day of toothache.. i decide it maybe a right time to say goodbye to my broken tooth and let the new wise teeth growing.. It will make me toothless again.. And i'm not sure i will get comfortable with it..

    Today.. the last day of his exam.. hope he can pass all the exam.. and see him soon in Medan.

    Feehily's exposed ;

    Monday, December 8, 2008


    Twilight.. The last movie that i saw in cinema make me keep searching for more. Read the novel too and finish it in 2 days.. The story is so fantastic, i can feel the way the Bella feels to love Edward although he is a vampire, he is the one who immortal and there will be a lot of dangerous that she will live it.. What she can do when she sacrifice her human life and try to being a part of vampire..And two thumbs up how the way the Edward Cullen try to protect his belove from the other side and his care make the girl crazy about him..

    Talking about care and the story in this book, actually remind me of someone..

    Spend my weekend read the book was fun.. It is a long time ago when i so addicted to read a novel till finish..

    Yesterday, attended some wedding parties and not bad.. i can adapt myself in that kind of situation. hehehe..
    Still confuse about my Australia tour in this December, planning to go for Gold Coast and Tangalooma again in this Dec, the visa is ok already, but all hotels are fully booked.. Hope i can get it ASAP.

    Miss you so much dear.. Can't stop to telling you that you are the part of my life now.. No matter how are you and what are you.. i accept all the kind of you.. I hope you too..

    Feehily's exposed ;

    Thursday, December 4, 2008


    Ok, talked about so much love recently, but what can i do? i just so in love with him.. hehehe..

    Today, i just want to write some amazing things that is a nature's miracle, at least that's what i think..

    01 Dec Some amazing things happened (even i didn't find any phenomena), Medan's sky got prettier cause of a smiling face between stars and moon.. It just too sudden case.

    Before that, we got a sun circle by the rainbow, and it looks really amazing.

    Nataline just borrow me a book call "the purpose driven life' which sold more than 20.000 copies, thanks so much Nat.. She tries to tell me how drive my life better than now.. hope i can read that book till finish.

    I have my own holiday yesterday and bore a whole day at home.. really bored.. Have some pizzas with my brother and sister and bought some shirts, good enough to make my mood ok..

    Honey.. !!!
    YOU SIMPLY THE BEST

    Feehily's exposed ;