I've been learning, how to be a better person and still trying to search for truth. Recently, i have been thinking about how to spend my life to be useful. I have a plan to go overseas, but i afraid of "MISS" sickness, after all i afraid i can't be better after that. Hmm.. What i have to do, just enjoy this condition or get a risk for a better one..

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doubt but i'm still make sure myself

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hmm.. Still trying to search for the best

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Trying..

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Fresh

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curious

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Wow.. Really fantastic.. These 09 days have passed really fast.. And now i start to miss the whole trip, hope we can get that chance again. Thanks God for give me this experience, really wonderful and make me proud as much.

I can feel the family taste in this group, although i ever mad with them, but most of them are nice. And thanks to them for accept me and give me a unlimited support.

Finally, i can feel the winter day in Beijing.. I love that.. Although it was really cold, but it was really wonderful.. Winter wonderland.. Hehehee..

This trip will be my pride and will be my part of wonderful experince.

I really grateful and thanks to everybody who trust me already.. Really exicited!!

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Really exiciting for the journey.. Feel really nervous, but really happy.. But now, i am tired.. Huh... Tomorrow will be a departure day, i hope i can be fit again
I need a perfect sleep to increase my energy, hehehee...

So, i will leave Indonesia for 9 days. Thank God i have a chance to dance in there although i thought i will never join this group again..

Thank God for :
Give me a chance to born in this family
Giving me someone who care for me
Bless me with an amazing people around me
Show me a way out when i've got a problem
Teach me how to love unconditionally
Give me a chance to live again in this world
Teach me how to live in this world

Hope we can success in there and i hope it will be a wonderful journey.. Pray for us

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Are You?

*sensitive = yup
*easily hurt = yup
*calm = no
*quiet = no
*choosy = sometimes
*very shy = sometimes
*confident in yourself = sometimes
*a good listener = maybe
*easily bored = yup
*outgoing = maybe
*an only child = nope
*tired = yups
*playing any online games = nope


D O Y O U ? ..

*believe the term 'love at first
sight'= yup
*have someone you really care for
presently= yup
*believe in love= yup
*play the guitar= nope
*play the drums= nope
*like your life= i try
*like school= sometimes
*like dancing= yup
*like sweets=yup
*like travelling= yup
*like Spongebob squarepants= nope
*ride a bike= nope
*read Harry Potter= yup
*play basketball= sometimes
*play badminton= sometimes
*play tennis= nope
*swim = nope
*watch Disney channel= nope
*love movies= yup
*like Oreo= yup
*like chips= yup
*do the housework= yup
*love your friends a lot= yup

Will You?

*get more than 5 piercings= nope
*hug a stranger= nope
*sneak out at night alone= nope
*try summoning a ghost for fun= nope

Have You ever?

*hugged someone= Yes
*look someone in the eye= yes
*do stupid things that finally made u
really embarrased= yes
*said sorry to someone= yes
*thank someone= yes
*smoked? = no

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Tired.. Really tired.. hehee.. But happy :)

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I ruined the exercise yesterday.. I can't explain myself why i felt so uncomfortable in there.. I used to be enjoyed and happy when i get together. Just can't tell them, why i feel so down when i get there.. Six days before departure, i still don't know that i have to go or not. I feel that i'm so fool right now.. Really stupid.. Feel to be unappreciated..

I went for barbeque last night with my college's friends.. Quiet fun but there something inside my head that i can't stop to think about..

One of my CNY resolution.. "I will not trust anybody else beside my family and myself.."
Hmm.. Dear someone, maybe you will be my perfect enemies.

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My life is fine, a little bore but peace.. Better that way than i have to face something that i can never imagine..

Lately, i really wonder of something.. How deep is human heart.. Are they friends or foes.. Are they good or bad..

Just wish my life will going better and better..

Missing my daddy.. And my relation with my xxxmom going better and better.. Hope she really mean it and really turn to be good..

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