<body> Lost In Beauty-

...I am me!

Living for waiting
All the things that you never know.

...All about me

Just trying to be myself
Enjoying life
And be grateful for who i am

...Friend's

`Alien

...Deep inside our heart

Still waiting for..
still wanting for..
still trying for..

...All the things you
said still running
through my head


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  • ...Lost in beauty...

    being me is my gift,
    being alone is my destiny, and
    being lost is my ...

    ...Talking...Talking...
    don't just talk...



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    by ice angel



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    Tuesday, December 26, 2006


    Yesterday was fun, Christmas this year was a little bit different. Feeling odd but it's ok. I lost my best friend in Christmas eve.

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    Saturday, December 23, 2006


    Haahaaa.. really happy today.. 02 days before christmas.. will the Santa visit my house this year? hehehee.. I think, i'll be the one who still believe in Santa Claus.. hehehee..

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    Friday, December 22, 2006


    Wish all the mother out there "happy mother's day".

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    Monday, December 18, 2006


    Jingle bells.. Jingle bells.. Hahaha.. Really happy, one week before christmas.. The time really run fast.. although there is no plan for christmas this year, but the spirit of christmas still on.. I hope i can have fun when christmas is coming.
    I hope my cough can getting better before christmas..

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    Thursday, December 14, 2006


    I have a lot of work today.. Really confused. My boss leave for America today and he gave many wealth to do today and tomorrow and the day after tomorrow and so on.. huh..

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    Wednesday, December 13, 2006


    Have to attend a party tonight..

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    Tuesday, December 12, 2006


    I am a little bit of loneliness a little bit of disregard
    Face away and pretend that I'm not
    But I'll be here 'cause you're all that I got

    I can't feel the way I did before
    Time won't heal this damage anymore
    Don't turn your back on me
    I won't be ignored

    I am a little bit insecure a little unconfident
    And I get lost in the nothingness inside of me
    And I live it all out to find
    That I’m not the only person with these things in mind

    I wanna feel like I’m close to something real
    I wanna find something I’ve wanted all along
    I will never know myself until I do this on my own
    I will never be anything till I break away from me

    All I know time is a valuable thing
    Watch the time go right out the window
    Trying to hold on but didn’t even know
    What it meant to me

    I kept everything inside and even though I tried
    But in the end It doesn't even matter
    I tried so hard to remind myself how
    Things aren’t the way they were before
    I've put my trust in you pushed as far as I can go

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    Wat should i do with this condition? really endure me..
    I have an exam AGAIN today.. Hmm.. This is the last mid test.. Hope i can pass it too..

    NB : I'll be just right here whenever u need me.. I keep my promise always.. :)

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    Monday, December 11, 2006


    Huh.. Really sleepy.. (-.-) zzzZZZ...

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    Saturday, December 9, 2006


    Yesterday was good.. All went successfully.. Today, i still have a lot of work to do.. On Monday, we will have 184 Paxs arrive Medan for tour. And the Malaysian travel agents is really "nice" to give us a lot of request.
    My friends keep calling me and ask me when i can meet them. Really confused.. Today i have to practice again due to tomorrow we have to dance again.
    I guess, today will be an exhausting day.. But i still love Saturday night.. Hehehe..
    Refresh.. ;)

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    Friday, December 8, 2006


    Woke up in the morning with a brand new feeling.. Mood in ok status now. Today we have to dance in Grand Angkasa Hotel, we already practiced yesterday and i hope i didn't forget it, hehehe .. ;p
    Maybe i will have a lot of work to do today due to the "Dumb" Sampai Travel agent's don't know how to do with the IATA BSP work.. Really stupid.. So all of their work will be mine today.. Huh..!

    Today, i have many friends and families will come to Medan, and guess what..? I don't even have a time for them.. I have to work, i have to dance and i have to bla.. bla.. bla.. I have to arrange my schedule again so i can meet them, at least once..

    Really confuse with the PLN's commitment.. No black out again? Just a joke that they wrote in the newspaper to make us feeling good. In fact.. In the early morning, i wake up in black.. Huh..

    But at lease today, i am feeling comfort.. Have to work now..
    Wish myself a good day.. :)

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    Thursday, December 7, 2006


    Still wondering wat i have to do to make this feeling out of my head...

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    I never been so sad for a long time.

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    Wednesday, December 6, 2006


    Huh.. Busy.. Busy.. And busy.. I have an exam for today.. Hope i can pass it well.. I met my mom's sister this morning after my dad told me that she was in the market.. She is the one who look like my mom's face. I haven't meet her for at least 12 years because she stays in Jakarta and i never know her address, and now, so i went to market and look for her.. At least i saw her. Really miss my mom.. I will take her to go for a walk this night after my collage. Everytime i look at her, it seems like i talking with my mom.. She was a little bit surprise when i met her this morning.. She can't recognize me anymore, but when i explained that i'm the daughter from her sister, she said she was surprise.. She will back to Jakarta tomorrow, even though i'm not close enough with her, but i like to see her face because i can see my mother in her. Hiks.. Miss her so much.. My dad saw my aunty too, and i think, he will miss my mom too..
    A little bit down for today, but i think i can cheer myself in this evening.. Hehehe..

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    Tuesday, December 5, 2006



    You are the World


    Completion, Good Reward.


    The World is the final card of the Major Arcana, and as such represents saturnian energies, time, and completion.


    The World card pictures a dancer in a Yoni (sometimes made of laurel leaves). The Yoni symbolizes the great Mother, the cervix through which everything is born, and also the doorway to the next life after death. It is indicative of a complete circle. Everything is finally coming together, successfully and at last. You will get that Ph.D. you've been working for years to complete, graduate at long last, marry after a long engagement, or finish that huge project. This card is not for little ends, but for big ones, important ones, ones that come with well earned cheers and acknowledgements. Your hard work, knowledge, wisdom, patience, etc, will absolutely pay-off; you've done everything right.


    What Tarot Card are You?
    Take the Test to Find Out.

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    Hmm.. No interesting thing to do for today.. Maybe i'm gonna find somethin to do tomorrow..

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    Monday, December 4, 2006


    Couldn't sleep last night, the past memory just go spinning around my head for the whole one night.. Huh.. And now, i have many works to do.. I think, today will be a exhausting day..

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    Saturday, December 2, 2006


    I can't understand, why everything have to be me...?*sigh...

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    Although you are not in here anymore, but i still wanna wish you a happy birthday..

    May you stay in our heart..

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    Welcome and thank you for visiting my blog..

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