Thursday, February 22, 2007
My meaning of life..
1. I have a wonderful family who love me so much.. They are my colour of life.. I really grateful to born in this family..
2. I have a exiting experience that no other person will have in their life.. Although it's bad or good.. But i know it..
3. I have a best friends in my life.. They are the most lovely person that i wish i can spend my old time with them..
4. I am living.. I am breathing and i am thinking..
To be continued...
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Saturday, February 17, 2007
Brand new feeling.. Really happy i can spend my day with my family.. We will have dinner together and we will be together for CNY.. Thank God i still have my family.. I can feel the support that they have gave to me and thank God i was born in this family..
Hope we can spend a wonderful CNY tomorrow and wishing everyone luck for this new year..
God Bless Us always...
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Friday, February 16, 2007
I'm so tired..
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Thursday, February 15, 2007
It's take a second to crush someone...
It's take a minute to like someone...
It's take a hour to love someone...
It's take a day to miss someone...
but...
It's take a life time to forget someone..
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I can't even smile today.. Hiks..
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This valentine make me realize something, i'm not sure am i worth enough for him.. I blame myself to be fool for a long time, have no brave to let it go.. But start from today, i will live my own day, i try my best to live for my self. Really hurt to taste this reality but, i think can pass it with the sweet memory in my mind. I will do it fine.. I will.. I hope i will..
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Wednesday, February 14, 2007
Today will be a very busy day for the cupids, they must be really busy with that work to make all the couple fallin in love. It must be fun for them.. wishing all the people in the world get their true love today...
The complicated feeling is coming again.. Yesterday is really a bad day for me.. Thank God i still have my friends that always be there to help me.
Got many words to say but better i keep it myself.. Hope today will be fun for me although i know it will be hard..
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Tuesday, February 13, 2007
Worried with my daddy condition, his hand got cut three days ago and i just found out just now. Don't know why, but i have a complicated feeling right now.. maybe sad.. maybe confuse, maybe afraid or maybe angry.. Not because of my daddy.. Really don't know why.. Hiks.. i hope somebody can make me smile today even though there will be nobody.. I really don't like this feeling !!!
Huh.. Hope i can be better today..
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One day before Valentine day.. Got no plan and think that i have nothing to do with that day.. Today i will make a cornflake chocolate. Not for Valentine day but for the CNY. Lately, i always think about one thing.. Am i deserve it? or am i be good already? or just am i a better person for anyone.. Don't know why, but my heart is almost in unsteady condition right now. Hope this year can be better for me..
I miss my friends so much, really wish i can spend this Valentine with them.. Just sit down, talk about life, give a support for each other and laughing together. I know i maybe can't find any best friends just like them anymore. To be together again for now is really a hardest thing to do. Most of us have our own life. Hope we can be together again. This is the song that really fit with what i think :
Friends forever by Vitamin C
And so we talked all night about the rest of our lives
Where we're gonna be when we turn 25
I keep thinking times will never change
Keep on thinking things will always be the same
But when we leave this year we won't be coming back
No more hanging out cause we're on a different track
And if you got something that you need to say
You better say it right now cause you don't have another day
Cause we're moving on and we can't slow down
These memories are playing like a film without sound
And I keep thinking of that night in June
I didn't know much of love
But it came too soon
And there was me and you
And we got so blue
Stay at home talking on the telephone
We'd get so excited, we'd get so scared
Laughing at ourselves thinking life's not fair
And this is how it feels
(1) - As we go on
We remember
All the times we
Had together
And as our lives change
Come whatever
We will still be
Friends Forever
So if we get the big jobs
And we make the big money
When we look back now
Will our jokes still be funny?
Will we still remember everything we learned in school?
Still be trying to break every single rule
Will little brainy Bobby be the stockbroker man?
Can Heather find a job that won't interfere with her tan?
I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly
And this is how it feels
We will still be friends forever
Will we think about tomorrow like we think about now?
Can we survive it out there?
Can we make it somehow?
I guess I thought that this would never end
And suddenly it's like we're women and men
Will the past be a shadow that will follow us 'round?
Will these memories fade when I leave this town
I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly
Really missing you guys.. Wish all the best for you..
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Saturday, February 10, 2007
Sometimes when we just don't wanna think about something, these things will run out automatically through your mind. I think i got a "Missing" sickness today. I miss my friends, i miss my daddy and i miss .. A lot of peoples for me to miss but will they think of me too? Really wish i can turn back the time so i can cherish more peoples and things that we have done together.
Can i grow up? or just follow the time to taste the experiences to make me grow up and grow up? Will the mature person think the things that i am thinking right now? Today is Saturday "Again".. I waste my 01 weeks already without doing something worthful for myself.. Can i be more useful people? I hope so..
I really feel myself weird with the things that i have to go through in my life. If i have been a chosen one, why you don't give any chance again to prove myself that i can handle it.. I can try my best to be better and better.. Sigh..
Cherish everyone and everything that you have today so you will not get any regret when you have pass the time.
Living for myself and for someone that i cherish the most.
Happy saturday night..
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Tired.. Tired.. Tired.. Really tired..
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Wednesday, February 7, 2007
Miracle was happen yesterday..
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Time to spread some hope,
Make the spirits rise
Do you see the wonder in their eyes
Time to speak of love
Hold each other close
Cause it’s the heart that matters most
Its still the same old moon
Why does it shine so bright
There’s a little magic in the air tonight
Time to speak of love
Hold each other close
Cause it’s the heart that matters most
Always the heart that matters most
Oh, take a look around you can see that it's true
It’s like a river flowing inside of you
Everyone needs love, you need it too
So here’s what you, have got to do
Spread a little hope, make the spirits rise
Do you see the wonder in their eyes
Time to speak of love, hold each other close
cause it’s the heart that matters most
In time we come to learn
It’s the heart that matters most
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Yesterday I saw the sun shining
and the leaves were falling down softly
My cold hands needed a warm, warm touch
I was thinkin' about you
But here I am lookin' for signs to lead me
You hold my hand
but do you really need me
I guess it's time for me to let you go
But I'll be thinkin' about you
Will you sail across the ocean waters
and you reach the other side safely
Well could you smile a little smile for me
Cause I'll be thinkin' about you
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Can't believe it.. Time goes so fast.. 01 more week the birthday for the people who love each other is coming.. Valentine day.. Till now, i still wonder why they have to use the pink colour to celebrate the valentine's day. Although i like the pink colour, but i really wonder the story behind of that colour. Pink is a soft colour, is it maybe they use to tell everybody that love is soft and tender? hmm.. about the valentine, i have heard that story in past, valentine day is discover by people who love their families, not the couple, but i don't know how comes valentine has been change to the couple's day. But i think it nice you can know there is one day you can feel the cupids are busy with their work, heheheheee..
Planned to wake up at 06.30 this morning, but i gave up.. The alarm was ringing and i just shut it down and settled the other time to wake up. Me and my friends are planning to go for work out in gym cause all of our lesson in college is already finish. We just wait for the exam on 26 Feb'07. Haven't decide it, but we will discuss it later.
Tired.. Tired.. And tired..
Wish me luck for today..
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Tuesday, February 6, 2007
Hmm.. CNY'07 will coming soon.. Haven't do any preparation, don know why, but this CYN'07 feel a little usual.. Haven't buy any new dress (No mood for that) and haven't prepare anything about the New Year.. But there is something make me happy.. My daddy will coming soon, really happy :) Miss him so much.. You are the best daddy in the world.. Although sometimes i feel a little annoyed, but i know everything that you have done is for me and my brothers sister. I dare to write this kind of thing in here cause i know, he will not read this blog ;P.. Really hope i can direct tell him that i love him so much, but.. hehehe.. it's a little weird to say it in words. I hope i can be useful for him someday and i hope he is proud to has a daughter like me, hehehe..
Today.. so far goes fine.. Nothing special happens.. Already reply the email, do some contract rates, remind the boss about the schedule and some outstanding he has to pay today.. nothing to do anymore.. everything is fine except i got my mouth pain.. Have no idea how to mention "mouth pain" in good english.. hehehee... Will go for college today, and go for dance exercise. Maybe my friend is right.. i have to make a good decision between dancing and the exam.. At last, i choose the exam already.. I like to dance so much but i know that the exam is more important for me, and it doesn't worth if i have to sacrifice the exam for hobby. At least i still will go for Beijing in March, hehehee... Really wonder and longing for dance in there. I heard that the teather will be the famous teather in there. Heheee.. i know.. I have a "Giant" body.. i get a limit for dancing, but at least i am happy with what i do.
Yesterday, watched the DVD until 00.00 AM, thank God the coffee safe me from sleepy style today, hehehee.. World is change day by day.. Many disaster going on and on.. Really wish i can help the Jakarta flood victims.. I got once that situation too.. Really afraid and really need help.. But i guess nothing i can do.. Just sit down and send my pray for them.. Really disappointed. May God help them to find their way.. I called my cousin in there and i know the situation is really bad out there. Will God mad to us? Please anybody try your best to do some good things.. Don't make the material things to be the first in your life. It will not last forever..
Really wonder how is Elis right now.. Really worry about her.. I tried to call her many times, hope she is okay.. I heard the Mangga dua place condition is really bad..
Wish myself a nice day and be happy always.. :)
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Monday, February 5, 2007
Dear Someone,
Are you proud to who i am? I brought something for you to see, but can you see me? You know what i want to talk about.. I hope can be your shelter when you need me. I'm believe even i'm not write in word in here, but you will hear me someday.. Can you tell me to keep my faith in you? Cause day by day, i have to confess, i have to fight all my thought for you and just keep telling myself that i will worth it someday.. Will i? Cause i don't want just let myself surrender in this competition..
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Saturday, February 3, 2007
Felt very disappointed yesterday.. Seems that everything i have done is useless..
And about something i can't write in here, i think about that all night.. I have to believe coz i have no other choice better than believe in that.
Today is saturday, no plan at all, i will spend my whole night to watch the DVD. Valentine day will coming soon, but this year i will spend it alone again. Huh.. Just enjoy it...
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Friday, February 2, 2007
Flower?
Rose and jasmine
Chocolate?
M&M
butterfly?
luv it
shopping?
when i get that mood
Blood?
B
Cartoon?
Doraemon, Pokemon and Hello Kitty
Hp?
Nokia
Doll?
Piggy..
Milk?
Ueeekk..
Wallet?
Don Know..
Ghost?
Ihh... Don't talk about that
Japan?
Cool..
Candy?
Mint..
Diary?
I am writing
City?
medan
Sunset or sunrise?
sunset
Moon?
So wonderful
Fruits?
Marquisa
Syrup?
I made it myself
Food?
Any..
Kiss?
hah??
beer?
No way..
College?
ITMI
Rose?
prettiest flower
Animal?
Dog
Water?
yup
Rainy day?
So cool..
Mall?
Nothing interest
winnie the pooh?
Remind me to someone
bear?
Polar bear
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1.What made you smile today?
hmm.. Nothing can make me smile today
2. Do you know that to love is also to
let go and be friend?
yupe, you can't force to love
3. Are you in love?
Everyday i'm in love, hehehe..
4. Are you in a relationship?
hehehehe..
5. Do you love your best friends?
Of course.. They part of my life
6. What songs are you listening to?
Only time
7. What is your favorite song for the
moment?
I want to be loved by you
8. What are your biggest fears?
huehuehue...no need to know
9. Write down one of your most
important person?
My families
10. Do you have ex-
boyfriend/girlfriend?
Hahaaa..
11. Do you like to watch sunset with
your love?
Of course, it will be so romantic..
12. What is your favorite book?
I Hope It was ...
13. Do you think gay-marriage is
disgusting?
nope...wats so wrong with that??
14. Have you ever love your own
bestfriend?
nope
15. Do you think break ups suck?
emm..yup...
16. Tell me a few important things
about your self!
im no one.. so i dun think there is
anything important bout me...
17. Do you think Brad Pitt is sexy?
okay...so so...
18. What about Jessica Simpson?
alright
19. Are you bored?
yup...to death
20. Do you wanna go back to the past?
sometimes it will be good if you can turn back the time
21. Do you have bestfriends from the
opposite sex? Are they good?
yup..they are
22. Name them!
u probably wont know them
23. What colors do you like?
white, red, pink and many more..
24. Do you like to drink beer until
you get drunk?
no.. noo... I afraid of that...
25. Do you like to drive all by
yourself?
Sometimes
26. Do you have important things to
say to someone?
yup.. I always be there for you every time you need me
27. Do you think guys who cheat on
their girlfriends can be forgiven?
nope...go to hell!!!
28. Do you hate your mother?
wat kind of question is that?! I wish i can love my mom more than anyo
29. Are you a family man/woman?
???
30. Are you sleepy now?
a bit
31. If you have a chance to say "i
miss u", who would that be?
..... God knows ....
32. Do you think math is interesting?
No math for today ok?
33. Are you selfish?
i think i do...hey, who dun???
34. See, if your brother is gay and
your sister is a lesbian, will you be
mad?
nope..they have that right
35. When you listen to romantic songs,
is there anyone that stick to your
mind?
yups.. who don't?
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